I'm constantly being drawn back to God. I envision it like fishing. God is in the boat, casting his line into the lake of lost souls... and I take the bait. He begins to real me into the boat and I want to go, but ultimately I break free from the line and swim away never really knowing why I keep leaving His side.

The spirit is willing, but the body is weak. (Matthew 26:41)

Parable of the Persistent Friend

>> Luke 11:5-10

Then he said to them, “Suppose one of you has a friend, and he goes to him at midnight and says, ‘Friend, lend me three loaves of bread, because a friend of mine on a journey has come to me, and I have nothing to set before him.’

“Then the one inside answers, ‘Don't bother me. The door is already locked, and my children are with me in bed. I can't get up and give you anything.’

I tell you, though he will not get up and give him the bread because he is his friend, yet because of the man's boldness† he will get up and give him as much as he needs.

“So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.

God, speak to my soul. Fill me with your joy and love. Change my heart so that it mirrors your own. "Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting." (Psalm 139:23-24) Lord I'm ready for change, and like Jacob said before me... "I will not let you go unless you bless me." (Genesis 33:26).

Things that made me smile today

spending the day in my pajamas
car washes :)
getting pedicures
re-reading Half Blood Prince just because
finding new music to fall in love with

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I purchased a new Bible to mark my year of "persistence", and on that note I am off to bed. Last nights insomnia is taking a toll. Apparently my hour long nap today did me no good.

Persistence

What (exactly) does that mean to me?

• Persevering through the hard times
• Smiling even when it hurts
• Turning the other cheek
• Not allowing disappointments to rule my life
• Keeping my face towards the Son
• Praying... and praying... and then praying some more
• Remember that the glass is half empty
• Focus on the positive
• Being the better person
• Learn from my mistakes
• Realize that tomorrow is another day to try again
• Believing in His Words

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"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

My word for 2010

I'm taking a page from Mandy @ Messy Canvas and picking a "word for 2010". I wish I could (honestly) say I prayed over my word of the year, and took time considering other words... but I can't. This decision wasn't even mine.

Persistence.

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It came to me not even ten minuets ago. I came home from dinner and out of no where persistence came to mind, and God made it very clear that this was to be my "word for 2010".

I don't know what's going to happen this year, but I am determined to let down my guard and follow God on a new journey. Words cannot describe how excited I am right now. 2010 is going be a turning point.